Life Changes

I planned to come on and show how far i've come in my hair journey, however, i've had a major event happen in my life that has changed that plan.

On Monday I was doing what i'm usually doing at 9pm, sitting on my computer looking at email getting ready to go to FaceBook when I received a call from a friend. I thought to myself this is odd, because we normally communicate through email or Facebook baring anything serious. Friend: "Hi Sonya ".
Me: "Hi". (giggle)
Friend: "You know this is C".
Me: "Yeah I know your voice".
Friend:"Well I just wanted to catch you before you went on FaceBook".
Me:"OK".
Friend:"Well I don't know if you've been informed but O took his life on Friday".
Me:(silence)..........."What do you mean?????"?
I was and am in a state of disbelief. O was a very compassionate and giving person. He was going through some very painful things but I thought he was doing well with it. He, like many of us, had demons from his past he hadn't dealt with. Now add in pressures and distress of the now. Not a good mixture. This event has been a big awakening for all that he came in contact with because he had that kind of effect on people. I don't think he even realised how much he would be missed. He helped me through a very dark period I was going through and wish i'd had the opportunity to do the same for him. I am truly saddened by this and do everything I can not to think of the time we spent together because it is sooooo painful. I miss him more than I thought I ever could.

This event made me think "What have I done in my life to leave this kind of impression on other people?" I can honestly say I have work to do.

Just a thought

So I was talking to an old friend this morning and he informed me that our old Spanish teacher had experienced a stroke. It through me for a loop. There is a long story behind this. I wont go into it. However it made me realise that even when you think you've dealth with and moved passed some things in your life until you truly deal with them they will keep creeping up. This old friend was my first boyfriend in highschool that cheated on me and ended up marrying the girl. Only later they got divorced. The teacher was like a mother to him. Since we both had AP Spanish with her she would often tell me to get over him after he finally told me he was with someone else. Imagine 3yrs in her class and the last 2 you had to deal with listening to her and looking at him!!!! I now think back on it and go WOW. We are now friends and i've learned alot about what he was having to deal with in his family and why she became his second mother. It's amazing what a difference knowing all the facts makes. I stayed angry with him for several years. When we finally caught up (Facebook) he felt obligated to explain everything and apologize. I never relaised how hurt I had been until he apologized. Nor did I realize how much this one relationship affected all the rest to follow.